Strictly speaking this isn't actually my first film online, but it's my first with any gravitas for one reason alone. Persistence.
I made this film, a short experimental piece, roughly a year ago when I had just finished my most recent bout of film school training. It's good actually. When I watch it back again, I am happy with what I created, particularly given the constraints that I had when I made it. It's an example of my editing work, my "selection and sequencing", but more on that later.
At the time, when I submitted it for the amazing SheffDoc Fest, I was very proud of myself. Pride which later begot a fall when it wasn't selected, or shortlisted for the competition, let alone as a finalist. Failure.
I felt, even later in time still, that it stood up against the shortlisted finalists, however I came to hate it, I refused to show it to anyone, and eventually it lay buried deep inside my LaCie external drive gathering dust under my coffee table.
The thing is though, I am still learning. Everything that I do lays testimony to my efforts, both good and bad. Everything that I do now, bears witness to the developments that I have made professionally and artistically and I have to be willing to show them to the world, to potential detractors and to potential admirers, if I am ever to be developed as a filmmaker.
So here it is, for your viewing pleasure... "Beautyface" - A commentary on the 20th century female obsession with the pursuit of perfection, AND a commentary on my own 20th century pursuit of perfection in filmmaking. Choose your piece. Upload it. Be brave!